I still write about this because it made me hurt so much that it took a whole year to forget about the summer , the way you used to look at me but I knew I couldn’t forget because those moments meant so much to me and I knew I would miss everything about that summer and it’s been two years since all of this happened and I still remember all the memories that we shared together from that summer.
People say I should let go of the past but I have I just haven’t forgotten about all the times we shared with one another and it killed me inside when I found out you were dating one of my best friend’s , Yes I was mad at the both of them but I got over it then I started to hate him and when I told my other best friend that I hated him she told me ” you don’t hate him , you could never hate him ” but I told her that she was right also what was going on and she was there for me when I needed her the most but it just hurt me so bad that I thought I could never forgive him ever again but I did forgive him then when I thought it could get any worse is when I saw them together , they looked so happy together and that killed even more that I started to cry and I guess I’m not going to forget about me because he was my first love he’ll always be one important fact in my life and even though i moved on I still wonder if he remembers the time we spend together two years ago.
I realize that I shouldn’t hold on to things that hurt me because it will just bring more pain into my heart and soul in the end which is what I learned and also that not everyone gets to have a happy ending like in the fairytales that in reality has it’s turn look on the world and not everything will turn out the way we plan it to be.
I was so lost without you here with me as if I had nothing to live for but you and only you I thought it was going to last forever but I guess I was wrong sometimes when I close my eyes I can see every moment we had shared together even to this very day I never thought it would turn out the way it did but I never told you how I really felt about somethings like how we actually didn’t break up with words but by turning our backs to each other was a way of saying our good-byes to one another.